Well I dont know what to say except I wish that I were dead... I tried to killmyself recently by taking a whole bottle of Zolaf it didnt work I guess I should have taken more instead what happened is I got sick and was in bed for a couple of days. I'm 21 years old I was going to school in Thailand to be honest I hated it though I really wanted to go to Japan but I cant afford it so I went their. I hated it the people are real racist even my ex-girlfriend that I believed I loved shes gone now what can I say no money no honey. I'm back in America and I dont like that either I want to go back but not for the people believe me but for the life style and it was relaxing but no funds. I also need to finish my education but I even question that my real dream is to start an import business which I doubt I can do... I fail at everything I have goals I dont really think they are big but they are challenging and nothing is working out I just want to die.

Hey Longearyan, practice what you preach.

break your goals down into bite sized morsels - that way they are not as intimidating, and accomplish one thing everyday that moves you toward a goal.Also, realize that you dont have to do EVERYTHING today - Japan will still be there in a decade or so. Really.

No, you don't want to die, otherwise you wouldn't have asked the question.Now that you've acknowledged that you want to live, start by not trying to fix everything at once.First thing--let go of the past. Forget what "was", don't worry about "will be". Focus on NOW. You want to go to Japan, look into teaching English there. The pay is not great, but you will be there, and it's possible to live cheaply if you have a little discipline.

Well I could be sarcastic ...but I will give some advice it would be your option to take it or leave it ...Everyone has choices they make ..Having said this you have obviously made some bad choices. Get a piece of paper and pen and write down your priotities ...Job for your trip back to Thailand ..Work and save all your money save save save ....You can do ANYTHING YOU SET YOUR MIND TO!!Have faith in your self .Good luck.

It sounds like you are clinically depressed. You need to go to a counselor (really, really!) to get some help - to get you out of this. If they give you medication, take it like it says.

at the age of 21 you have not had time to live life in time life get's better . get your education and every thing after that will come to you . you will find the girl you are ment to be with and in america lots of us Know Black is sexy . you need to get out more do fun things go out . you need to get COUNSELING some times that helps lots of ppl go thrue what you are you are not alone . little do you know if you do die you are maken a wrong choice you are put on earth to make it better if you kill your self you are not maken it better . give your self some time before you know it you will have a great life, go back to school and do the work and when you are done you will find a good woman and maybe have kids and you will see what life is about. get COUNSELING it may help and keep going . you have to make life better for you and when you do will will make a difference for the world not just you . if you die you will hurt every one so think about it. Life is not meaningless . you have to make a difference get your education and make a difference don't let any one keep you down . after you get an education weman will be falling on you and life will be great give it time when you are just starting out life is hard please think about it . foucs on good not bad . think on what you can do good . you could help other ppl once you get an education you could help others and that would make you feel great I bet . get a job helping homeless or kids that need help as well try to make a difference we need some one in the US that can so try and give it time and make something of your self .

To be honest, my life isn't worth much at this time either. I just deal with it though. I want to be a singer which might be even bigger than your goals (since you said that they aren't very big) and sometimes I think I'll make it, other times I think where to even start.When I get serious with it though, I will contact a former music teacher to see if I could come to his studio and record a demo or something.Good luck in whatever you do - I'm sorry you had a bad time in Thailand, but was the weather nice? I bet it was.Goodbye.

The fact that you were saved after attempted suicide means that you have still a great purpose of living. Do not be in a hurry to achieve your goals everything has a time just be focused, patient and study and work harder. When fail comes in along your way do not be dispair get up and resume your focus, patience and harder drive. I know you will be rewarded with the good things you have invested. Good luck!

Don't kill yourself this is just a temporary situation. Have you considered Canada?